I haven't been on for so long. This place gets queerer by the minute. It's so different.

I have a question for you: WTF AM I DATING BLAINE?

Just a little inquiry.


I refuse to fail my classes. I'm going to be doing makeup work and extra credit for the next two weeks, nonstop, because I simply WILL not fail Geometry. But hey, it's not my fault I'm shape retarded. My pirate teacher won't let me draw in class anymore so it's basically a waste of time.

I'm 15 now or something. It's curious.

And now I have to go eat biscuits. n_n

<3Bread.

Diana

Halloween: Cool.

Day After Halloween: Diana fucks up.

Weekend: see a play where old ladies kill people, go to the movies with jacy and joel, etc.

And then today: I find out Emery is okay with my screw up. =]] yesss.


and there is my update.

Oh, oh, and the chicken pox are gone, except for those scabby things. But they'll go away mostly before I die. yay.

chicken pox. wtf do i do now?

Band concert tomarrow. And we kinda suck. And I haven't gotten my clothes yet, my parents refuse to get out of bed and drive me.

OUT OF BED: it's 3:00 pm. Is that not wrong?

Also, all of them got today off. Carolyn decided she was "sick" but not too sick to drive dear little Zoe all over town so she can switch out of Ryan because for the past 2 weeks shes been unhappy. I think unhappines without backup is a lame as fuck excuse for that. And then Jeffrah got everything off because thats what his work does.

Other than that, I've been really happy today. Actually, this whole entire week. Emerys been incredibly nice to me lately (after maddy dumped him), Joel and I have been hanging out a lot, I'm talking to haley again, and Nika hasnt smoked in two whole days! Plus, i get to have a concert. Even though its gonna be terrible, I'm at least a little excited.

Theres some foreign lang competition that is gonna go on soon and since West has the only french classes in the district (for french 1 at least) we all have a pretty great chance at winning. it's just memorization. Anna and I are totally gonna do it. And win. Maybe.

If we do win we get to go to Anchorage. Which isnt really exciting, but exciting enough to make me squirm slightly.

Yesterday was awesome. After school, Jacy, Charles and I walked to freddies. But that was boring. Afterwards we went to Emery's birthday party, which suprisingly didn't disappoint. Joel and I tied at Emery trivia and we all played wink:
aka we beat eachother up and kissed until joel had a bloody nose, blaine had a sore back, and no ones knees were without rugburn.

Pretty kickass.

But today sucked kinda, since all I really did was find out Charles has chickenpox. Which is bad, because that means I might have them too.

This will be a nervous month for me.

Tomarrow's either gonna rock or suck.

Margh.

But I get to see Matt on monday?

School's been okay. Emery's being normal so I think I'm going to his party. We'll see how that works out. And I officially heart band class. Forever. Because I'm not a freak or anything, but it all totally rocks. French was sweet. We got french names. I'm now officially "Madeleine". It started a riot when I told Anna, we were singing songs from Madeline movies, which eventually turned into a really loud 2 part harmony of the backstreet boys while we were supposed to be studying or something.

I love the backstreet boys.

Amy hit me like 3 times today. It was nice of her? =] And Nikas gonna give me her old thing of eyeliner, which is exciting. I get the one with history, the one that Haley drew on drunk peoples faces with. All the rest is the stuff Nika managed to make her way out of freddies with before getting arrested.

Aaand lunch was cool because fatbitchlady wasn't at holiday, aka we bought pretzels and danishes and slimjims. It was orgasmic.

Yes.

So: Nika gets arrested.

Diana and Marisha use their mad defense attny. skill to defend her.

I have two months to make a good defense out of no mitigating factors except "It was day time," and "It was her first offense." Yaaayy.

Zoe broken into this RENT rant that simply must end before the movie grows dull. I'll just have to stay away from her. Tomarrow, though, I think Joel and I are watching that because he wants to see a crossdresser play drums, etc.

aahhmygooddd RENT.

yay.

and paint.

for my bedroom.

YES.

I heard you were depressed
From a little bird who was severely hurt
As it did not notice my window
It just flew wherever the wind blows.
It convulsed on the pavement
It whispered "I am hated.
Your genetic flaws"
I said, "Say it all.
You can't decipher reflections from reality."
But then neither can I.
--PlayRadioPlay!, Decipher Reflection

OMG i wanna go to NY with nika someday. how exciting.

i like how i look forward to things like that.

ooh hungry hungry hippos, where is my food?

Homecoming SUCKED.

But then, what school dances in fairbanks dont? I got to bail with Nika. that was a good thing.

I LOVE ART CLASS.

Date:	2006-09-18 12:01
Subject:	Contemplating...
Security:	Public
Mood:	gloomy

I wish I had gone to school today. But I really really didn't want to this morning. Not because I was tired. More ashamed than anything. But I miss people a lot now and wish I hadnt done that. I knew I'd regret it. Stupid Diana.

Ughhh I'm sooo bored. And that leads to being really really really sad.

Yesterday I cried a lot and yelled at Emery. I feel better now. He gets it. :) And he's happy too. Not exactly win-win, but better than last time. It's funny because every person but Emery says he will come back. I kinda think he will. But it's not worth it to get my hopes up. One thing everyone seems to be quite keen on thinking is that Emery can never get with anyone but me. (I can believe that. He's too much of friends with every girl he knows to ever date them. Or at least that's my opinion.)
That makes me happy, in a whorish kind of way.

I'm not mad at him anymore. I'm just jealous and lonely.

I'm not into school at all anymore. My social life is going to die because I feel terrible being with the people I hang out with and the other ones are always high. But Matt McGovern (ruler of all firsty-lasties) is going to eat lunch with Nika and I tomarrow. MAYBE GARRETT TOO. that would be SO cool. I should go to hutch. Or they should go to West. I miss those kids.

Ooh, HOUSE IS ON TONIGHT. I'm so excited. AHH XD

sweet.

Date:	2006-09-09 14:35
Subject:	A Lack of Color
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad

WVHS is betterish. Or it was. Now I don't know who exactly I should be hanging out with. I do so hate being single.

Date:	2006-08-28 20:23
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off

hmm.

hungry.


and everything was going so well...

God, today was awesome. I lied, it was just a very very rebellious day. And I'm getting better at lying. Yesss..

Amy got a dog? Diana i very confused.

How ever will the Samdog react?

I have:

Band
Geometry
Studio Art
French 1
Honors English
Biology

Aaand I want Joel in my math class, and SOMEONE, ANYONE in my art class. se vous plait.

I want to take Spanish 1 or American Sign Lang. GIS. That would rock a lot. My goal is to learn as many languages as possible by then end of highschool because I need some unreachable goal to set for myself if I ever want to make it anywhere.

I'm so excited that schools on monday. The bad thing is, though, I already lost my locker combination. :( I always leave something at joels, It's incredibly sad.

And I feel like telling you: I wrestled Joel. He won. Eventually. I hurt now. But it was funny. I can actually match Joel in physical strength. Poor Joel, what an insult. Emery thought it was hilarious n_n.

=/ the fair is really really really boring when no one is there.

and when youre there all the time.

*sigh*

hmm. oh well.

maybe it will be better tomarrow.


Susan died. That's really really not cool. And everyone is coming up for the funeral.

Date:	2006-08-03 03:20
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful

:D Fair.

I wish emery wasnt so annoying lately. That would be cooel.

Soccer sucks. We're losing. It's terrible. Oh, well. Rowdy's gone so John will let us die off quickly, expecially since we hate him.

But the fair will be fun when Veronika is allowed in my house again n_n

I looove this commercial with little richard for geico. He seems so enthusiastic. It makes me laugh.